*blows dust off cover of page*
so, from the days of old I remember a place where days were spent reading both crummy, and great poetry, and viewing pictures. I decided to return to this space..for now. I do not know what the future brings, but I've changed since a little since 16, and I think that this the moment of truth for this page. It may die again, it may not.. for now I'm throwing some stuff on it, and crossing my fingers as to my activity. In closing, this really is a revolver shot, and I'm uncertain how many bullets I have left.. well, here it goes. *click*

Well, let's see time for a bit of sunshine on the seemingly cloudy world. Here it is.. quit wondering, the billion upon billions of questions you have for yourslef will give you jack-squat in the end. You can sit and wonder what you've done to this enviroment in which you live, or you could do something more selfish and live. It's usually a good option I hear, not that i've tried it anything.

Hmm, now this is the part where i'm supposed to tell you about my life. Well, its damn boring XD not that i'm complaining.. I've been actually able to get through a couple books lately ^^ which is awesome because I missed reading. My bought me book, she knows I like fantasy.. so she bought me Eragon or however its spelled..i was deeply saddened.. but she exclaimed in an ever so excited manner "Did you see the book I got you?!?" me:"Yes, mom." Her eyes lit up, "So, you like the book?" me:"eeh.. yes mom.." so now I must read it and tell her about it.. although the writting in it..well its like fanfiction writting.. and that stuff bores me to hell >> oh well.. i'll read it for my mommy's sake ^^

I got my ACT scores back, and I scored a 24 T_T one under the desired score ..but I shall try to work hard and raise back up.. anybody know a math tutor that can reteach me algebra that i've seemed to discard from my memory? XD

hmm... i've dropped band because i had to take health.. its been 2 school days without band.. and i missed it so bad i asked if i could come in on mondays and learn the music ^^ (because I have academic practice on those days as well so its one trip sort of thing) heh.. i'm patheic.. but proud to be nerd.. lol
well, sayonara(sp)

what the hell does that mean? I'm unsure so maybe you all can figure it out. I finally came back to this..err rotting thing .. what was it called oh DA! *thumbs up* I figured that since my activity will increase online (thus making grades decrease agian) I should announce that as soo... yeah.. hmm so what has been going on lately ..well i've done more physical harm to myslef these last few days than I really care to say (but I will anyways) I've fallen off my porch, I've ran into the back of a car, i've hit my arms on so many pointy corners, i've tripped several times, the other day I ran into the damn door again, had a life or death exiperence with my attempted driving (almost hit a disel head on), actually make that two.. the 2nd time chazz being with me and i tried to beat a truck out of panic.. luckily i beat the truck and chazz got to live ^^ oh and today i get hit with a chemistry book (the wielder being Clayton, it was an accident though so alls forgiven) ...yeah.. i should stop this movement thing.. its really becoming a pain.

as for everything else.. with drama and such.. I'm fucking good.. nobody's bothered me.. nobody's having mental break downs.. lately.. so yes.. its cool.. i'm having a normal life without constant consueling sessions (which I should of started charging for admission ? hmm.. jk) ^_^ although now that everything settled down with everyone..idk.. i kinda miss consueling? *smacks self* lol

also got a 77 on my ASVAB..didn't do as well as I would of liked.. but may.. doesn't matter...took the ACT for the first time too.. hoping for at least a 25.. ^^" then Northwest can be more financial pleasing ^^"

What else? hmm.. hmm... damn! i can't think of anything else but.. i know i have more things to say.. oh..oh.. T_T am I really that boring? better shut my mouth *sigh*

Special note! If your a tnker, i'm back.. this time for good.. so get your the ketchup ready! WOOT!

also.. if your KOL memember.. I have clan with a plan..the plan is to be the laziest adminstrator of a clan ever recorded woo.. (aka sorry and i'll get my act together soon ^^")

Ignoring the titling.. well .. Shakespear did once say some crap about a wheel of life.. how it goes up at high points then would turn and go down.. and that was how he described the events of life.. that fate will sometimes fuck you and other times love you like an angel... well i'm hoping that fate will love me tomarrow... lol I just ... don't know.. I haven't hit bottom.. that's ridicoulious.. considering there is actually not to much wrong with me.. except things at which I create for myslef... I really wish I wasn't so sensetive.. because then maybe.. I wouldn't be affected so bad by what people say.. I wish for a Iron Shrod... I wish for one for my selfness... lol
...hmm ... i'm calm.. thank the lord for the calmness.. after ..well before..whatever before was.. maybe then I can return to myslef.. yes I do hope so! *crosses fingers*

well.. here we are staring at the walls.. and if you dont' know what that alludes to try thinking of context of which doesn't involve your self.. and that is how I wanted to start this journal entry.. but MYEH! Why should I make it sound as if I have a smitten of intelgence .. why? when everyone around me proves time and time again that I was put on this simple earth to fuckin fail.. . okay.. deep breathe.. explaintion require I KNOW! haha.. *sighs* hmm.. things have been buggin me.. in at err lately sort of way.. mostly the whole damn junior thing.. its fuckin nerve racking.. the teachers all sudden excpect you to ascend beyond this mundane attiutde that students usually have.. aka.. they want to make you feel like a tiny lil insignificant lil robot and repeat what ever they say as knowledge.. the work is challenging.. but that's not my problem.... its like every goddamn person on this earth is trying to re-write my programming.. I DON"T LIKE TO BE RE-WRITTEN!!!! I MEAN FUCK! I'm perfectly fine with my version of ME... >> and not Windows ME because then I would Blow some fat rapped up sombraros... ...........................................
fucks you.. (not in a serious sort of way) and thank you for reading....


"Cast me away.. i'm fried like a chicken..aka DONE!"

ps....i've been very stressed out lately.. err not because of people.. more or over the robots.. and well my mom keeps mentioning over and over how old she's getting.. and how she'll die soon or later.. well of course this gets me in kinda twist.. sorry if I take it out on you.. sorry...