well i thought it time to get my ass in gear and write one of these god forsaken piece of shit journal entires that people read... why do we read them?

anyways.. lets see i'm in one piece after that camping trip ( i said i was going to talk about it when I returned..but i became lazy and good for nothing thus didn't) It was actually quite a hell hole.. I mean i guess i had fun but wholly crap.. didn't think I drinking water could get me sick.. (as to my belief that is what it was)

oh and as per the permit test.. I avoided it like the god damn plague and still fucking am! HA hahahahaha! TAKE THAT YOU STUPID TEST!! SEE I CAN PROCRASTINATE ON YOU ALL I WANT.. HAHAHA! *is a loser and too scared to take it*

anyways.. so what has slivie been doing through out the summer? eh? bet your curious.. SITING ON HER GOD DAMN BUT DOING NOTHING PRODUCTIVE!! HA! Take that you damned succesful people! who work hard and junk.. HA.. phewy on you! PHEWYYY! lol well i've hung out with some friends from time to time.. had a summer job to there for bit.. in fact.. i've acted totally out of character whilist i was there.. I just wasn't myslef and i have no idea why.. *blinks* I mean i even told someone what i think of them in mean harsh words o_0 .. .what the fuck happened to my little brain?!? lol

ahem *smacks slef* there all betters now! ^_^ I've went through some damn good animes too.. ^^ I would list them.. but damn that would be some typing wouldn't it?

and yes there is a lot of cursing in this fucking journal.. why? because i tried to fit a least one per paragraph just for some stupid fucking fun .. HA!

I don't have anything paticularly intresting to talk about.. just noticed that it had been a damn long time since i've created a journal entry...

Hmm.. I would talk about current events, but truth be told what's the point? By now anything that has happened has been spoken by other people.. lol and so far the summer vacation has been, what I did not expect.. odd it is... You see usually during the summer I bury myslef in a little hole to get away from everything that is not in a virtual fashion. However, this summer people have so far kept me from doing that... not saying its a good or bad thing...because i'm not sure which it is.. lol But I'm going to try to dig that hole deeper and not come out for a lil while... 2 days tops.. because I've already promised someone that I would brave the wilderness with them.. *sighs* I despise camping but no they get me to go with because there is "no one else they'd rather come along" aka butter me up so I'll go with because they can't stand 4 days with thier parents XD why the hell don't people just say thier intent? It makes no sense to dress up an intention with flattery or pretty words.. But that is just me...
As I've heard "What's simple is true..." (thanking Jewel lol) and its the truth.. I mean why can't people keep things simple and obivious.. truthful.. no I forget we're cowardly lil humans.. lol oh well just my rant for the minute..

and I will ask all that read this journal entry.. a penny for your thoughts? (Whether they relate to this or not lol)

Now back to saving the world! lol if you understand then, thank you..
Ps. Permit test is in 2 days.. i'm worried because well i've procrastinated on studying again.. *sigh* oh well.. I'll cram XD

Lyrics! cause I feel like it.. and its a damn good song.. lol

Angel Eyes By: ABBA

Keep thinking 'bout his angeleyes
keep thinking

Last night I was taking a walk along the river
And I saw him together with a young girl
And the look that he gave her made me shiver
'Cause he always used to look at me that way
And I thought maybe I should walk right up to her and say
It's a game he likes to play

Look into his angeleyes
One look and you're hypnotized
He'll take your heart and you must pay the price
Look into his angeleyes
You'll think you're in paradise
And one day you'll find out he wears a disguise
Don't look too deep into those angeleyes
Oh no no no no

Keep thinking 'bout his angeleyes
keep thinking

Sometimes when I'm lonely I sit and think about him
And it hurts to remember all the good times
When I thought I could never live without him
And I wonder does it have to be the same
Every time when I see him, will it bring back all the pain
How can I forget that name

Look into his angeleyes
One look and you're hypnotized
He'll take your heart and you must pay the price
Look into his angeleyes
You'll think you're in paradise
And one day you'll find out he wears a disguise
Don't look too deep into those angeleyes
Crazy 'bout his angeleyes
Angeleyes
Once he took my heart and now I pay the price
Look into his angeleyes
You'll think you're in paradise
And one day you'll find out he wears a disguise
Don't look too deep into those angeleyes
Oh no no no no

Keep thinking
Keep thinking 'bout his angeleyes
Keep thinking
Keep thinking, I had to pay the price

and for a friend.. love you love!(tis our secret k?)

Cold, Cold Heart By: Norah Jones
I tried so hard my dear to show that you're my every dream
Yet you're afraid each thing I do is just some evil scheme
A memory from your lonesome past keeps us so far apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart

Another love before my time made your heart sad and blue
And so my heart is paying now for things I didn't do
In anger unkind words are said that make the teardrops start
Why can't I free your doubtful mind,and melt your cold cold heart

*There was a time when I believed that you belonged to me*
*But* now I know your heart is shackled to a memory
The more I learn to care for you, the more we drift apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart

and now.. the final one..for everyone!

Tubthumping by: Chumbawamba
We'll be singing
When were winning
We'll be singing

CHORUS:
I get knocked down but I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
I get knocked down but I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
I get knocked down but I get up again
You're never going to keep me down
I get knocked down but I get up again
You're never going to keep me down

Kissing the night away
Kissing the night away

He drinks a whiskey drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him of the better times

Oh Danny boy, Danny boy, Danny boy

CHORUS

Kissing the night away
Kissing the night away

He drinks a whiskey drink
He drinks a vodka drink
He drinks a lager drink
He drinks a cider drink
He sings the songs that remind him of the good times
He sings the songs that remind him of the better times

Don't cry for me ????????

CHORUS x 4

Working on getting my work posted.. first have to claw through the deviations that i've seemed to racked up lol

Friends (hope I do this right):


and too all the rest I was too lazy to post.. sorryness lol

Speical Deviants! (aka this person's work rules!!!)
Keep writting.. or else face brickage for you've got a fan in me ^^

ah.. I don't have much to say.. err.. never do XD but yeah... i wanted to post this cool little thing up ^^ enjoy.
(sorry I stole it Chole.. twas just so cool ..thus I had too ^_^)

10 Firsts...
-First Best Friend: Jessica McNees (still is)
-First Imaginary Friend: Um.. heh.. I started out with worlds not single persons.. but I used have this little racoon named Ricco (who was acctually a hat) twas six. ^^"
-First Pet dog name: King (German Shepard)
-First Piercing: Don't have any
-First Crush: John Rupp
-First CD: Jewel- Pieces of You
-First Car: I haven't got one yet. But Mom and Dad keep saying they'll buy me one, but its gotta be less than $5,000.
-First School: Belleview R-3 Elementray and Preschool
-First Kiss: I've never been kissed.

9 Lasts...
-Last Time You Smoked: Never (unless you count my bro forcing me to when I was 4, it was to teach me not to do it.. and trust me.. I don't want to )
-Last Food You Ate: Ribs and Baked Potato.
-Last Car Ride: This Morning.. mom picked me up from the time block's house and we went driving around Back baner.
-Last Movie You Watched: Daughter of The Bride II
-Last Phone Call: Last night, err.. I think it was vanna or maybe danny.. lol
-Last CD You listened to: The Used- In Love and Death.
-Last Bubble Bath You took: err.. last time sophie was over..months ago.. *blinks*
-Last Song You listened to: Temperature- Sean Paul (the radio's choice not mine, although the beat is catchy.. lol)
-Last Fight: um...a very long time ago... I punched this kid in the nose because he was picking on my cousin, vanna... his head then decided (wasn't my fault) to hit the monkey bars and crack his head open.. again not my fault.. He shouldn't be saying stuff about a 6-year-old girl.. and it wasn't my fault that he happened to be standing by it...

8 Have You Ever...
-Have You Ever Dated a Best Friend: yep.. ^^
-Have You Ever Been Arrested: no.. although the cops do seem to be attracted to Danny's car in an odd way XD
-Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: yes..I was 5 XD
-Have You Ever Been on TV: no
-Have You Ever Kissed Someone and Regretted It: no..
-Have You Ever Cheated on Your bf/gf: No.
-Have You Ever Been on a Blind Date: No.
-Have You Ever Been out of the Country: Used to live there full time ^^

7 Things You are Wearing...
- Red T-Shit
- Blue Jean Capires(sp)
- Tennie Shoes
- A white hair tie.
- Sliver/Black glasses
- Unmentionables.. that I just mentioned XD
(ran out of things to list)


6 Things You've Done Today...
-Laid in bed.
-Listened to Vanna's stories.
-Ate Lunch
-Played with Ethan.
-Got online at the Boarding Home.
-Hugged my Grandma.

5 Favorite Things (no specific order)...
- ANIME!!! (watching, which I will commence doing shortly)
- Blue.
- Computers.
- Listening to music.
- Writing.

6 People You Most Trust (no specific order)...
- Vanna
- Burky
- Charles
- Danny
- Mom
-Jessie

3 Choices...
- Vanilla or Chocolate: Chocolate heals all wounds.
- Hugs or Kisses: Hugs.. ^^ (although personally I don't like being touched..^^")
- Pens or Pencils: Pens (GEL PENS, the next world leader)

2 Things You Want to do Before You Die...
- Go to Japan.
- Write a book that people can connect to, and that people can read and come to love.

1 Person You Want to see
- A bunch..thus I can not list one ^^

6 People I want to put this in thier Journal Entry. (heh..)

I decided I should get into this whole more than my complients thing people are doing so:
Currently listening to: Changes by Tu Pac
Currently Reading: Go Tell It on The Moutain by James Baldwin (good book! highly recommended for those who question but warning deals with God)
Watching: er...INUYASHA NIGHT WOOT! teh speical sesshomaru(no killing is allowed for misspellings..my spelling loves to suck..as charles would say "Its a whore")



Well, here it is.. a time of the year when people either feel like killing themsleves or happily enjoy it.. This day (when I was younger) used to grate on my every nerve in my body, for the reason it just didn't make a lick of sense. Your celebrating love, friendship, etc. on a day a guy got his head chopped off??? (yes danny your ironic comment) wtf?!? Which psycho decided that should be done?? We should shoot that one, we should.. ^^ One less to make no sense and yet have some werid cult following that eventually turns into fact.

Well, I was a good little girl and got many many people gifts.. I'm not rich so I apologize if I left you out of the chocolate and rice balls.. couldn't be helped.. OH!!! OH!! I made rice balls for the first time ever, (26 of them) so cool, so much fun.....but too much work.. 4-5 hours to make them... gah! no more rice balls!!! and then danny goes and makes 12 in about 1 hr and 20 mins.. not fair.. next time he can make them that fem-man him.. outcooking a girl..lol

School life.. is as usual.. I struggle to stay within the top while managing to procrastinate (as I am doing now) and sneak off with not doing stuf.. then beg for mercy.. I've become very good at begging

umm.. Oh yes.. Me and Burky are going out ^_^ I thought at first..that it would make things different between us.. I was ooh soo worried.. but nothing changed.. well a little but nothing major.. so its.. Great! for the time being that is.. now emotions change with people.. but really i've come to learn (through watching other peoples flounders and screw ups ..mostly my sisters.) that if you are aboslutely honest you can avoid screwing yourslef.. and not hurt others' feelings.. if you don't hide any emotions at all .. you'll be fine!


and now.. Ryan I have thought about that question you asked a me a looong time ago.. I tried to come up with a good answer then .. but failed heh.. so here is my answer.. your question, although not exactly worded this way was.. How can one be Always happy, if they feel other emotions such as sadness, anger, and such? Here is my answer that I think is the best one to offer you: The only way to be always happy is to be, as far as your concerned, completely honest.. because then no matter what you feel at that current time, you will come back and feel happy because you'll know inside you that everything was said or expressed in all possible ways..and you can't feel a constant emotion of depression and such if you know that in life you have tried to be as reasonable as possible and worked for understanding.. you just can't .. well that is all worded weridly but I tried! ^^" Sorry I lack intellgence and fiense(sp) and proper spelling. lol

And then I wonder why the hell am I writing and who to.. if no one reads this? oh well here's to life and criticism *drinks imginary sake* ^_^

One must remember, if you have ever read any of the Heart series by Robin D. Owens.. "Life is Good" as said by Zanith, the Coolest Fam-Cat in existence! ^^


okay.. now I would like to now something.. .HOW THE FUCK DO I PUT THOSE PICTURES UP TO LINK TO PEOPLE'S
PAGES??? (thank you )

I'm thinking... but I forget what its about.. I've finally gotten my millions of dev views down to 85 (well not millions but felt like it) and i'm thinking I should post a poem.. but not sure which one.. hmm ... so many don't know which one to risk to view... lol

So far, I seem to be retaining less academic info than I started out with..

Btw if you are one that goes to my school, BUY AN FBLA TEE-SHIRT DAMMINT! (i'm just not a good salesperson xD)

well, what happened today.. I took 2 tests, got through some math, and am currently avioding studying for history test..

thoughts:
I'm thinking about the future and just what it could be.. but everytime I look to see. I see failure's face, smiling back at me. I know the road is steep, and I know that it is long. However, when I finally reach its end, then I know the choices I made were wrong.
(better not to ask)

oh!! i'm currently trying to come up with a story topic for mrs. Sargents contest.. because well.. i want to.. i have a few ideas swimming through my head.. one is a dream I had about keeping secrets and not surrendening (invovles keys and a dracula (heh)) and another idea is about getting something you didn't quite expect and adapting.. err i know not very specfic but I don't feel like explaining it all XD sorry lazyness..

I need money ...anyone want to donate to the poor? jk